Wednesday, June 28, 2006
wat do I do when I start missing bear bear?
I'll start going through the pictures we had taken together n start missing the gd times we had..
how I wish I own the picture book that I had done for bear..
haha at least I can go through it n start laughing at my work..
laugh at my ideas when I first thought of doing that for him..
Im so into thinking abt the gd times that I forgot he's at tekong.. =(
I wished the time can pass faster..
I yearn for weekends..
that's the only time I get to see my bear..
I dun wanna lose any opportunity upon getting to see him..
once I missed it, it means I cant see him for 2 weeks..
NO!
now I understand wat jx told me b4..
"dun worry, bernard will love u more after he get into NS.."
haa..
Im realizing n feeling it..
I think it is all worth it for having 'missing bear' syndrome..
I knoe it's gotta be tough.. but I will get use to all these..
becoz I have bear bear..
2:25 am by *- icepiano
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
finally bear bear book out on thur nite..
got to meet him on fri evening..
we went walk walk at suntec n esplanade..
there was outdoor performance..
it was some sort of fire festival so there r ppl performing fire stunts..
it's a short nite..
take a few pictures with my cam..
haha this is how my bear look when he is botak..
at last.. a picture together after so long.. cheeze!
went out with angie n jx on sat..
jx itchy hands wore the 2 caps on us n took a pic..
but it's nice..
sort of like couple caps.. cute n cheerful..
went for movie.. cars again..
watched that the day b4 bear went in tekong..
now we watched again..
it's nice la.. dun mind watching twice though..
b4 that went for dinner at pasta mania at suntec..
all of us ate till full..
had ice cream at ben & jerry's.. jx's treat.. hee
after movie we went chilling out at dxo..
jx had the card so could bring 2 persons in.. so we juz pay for 1..
called a bottle of vohka with a jug of ribena n sprite..
angie was the 1st to get seh.. next me n dear..
wat a bad day..
getting seh is a veri miserable thing..
I thought I was sober.. until dear bring me to stroll, my head juz spins like mad..
vomitted outside esplanade.. argh..
went home after that as dear was seh too..
all of us hang over till the next day..
but I still enjoy myself..
becoz I get to see my bear bear..becoz I can have my bear bear's company..becoz I can feel bear bear's hug..becoz I knoe my bear bear loves me dearly..smilez.. ^_^
2:13 am by *- icepiano
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
I need photoshop CS..
who has it can lend me?
3:23 am by *- icepiano
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
missing my bear bear so much..
poor bear suffering in tekong..
haiz.. all the physical training r so tough..
today he kena tekan by his officers..
though he nv sound tired to me..
but I knoe he is trying to make his life better in there..
feel so helpless then..
but I knoe he is strong enough to pull through then..
glad that he seems getting along with his bunk mates..
so much wanting to see him..
so much urge to talk to him..
every nite chat doesnt seems enough for me to chat with him..
he got so much to do but yet with so little time..
lights off too early..
but Im still glad he still rem to call me as he promised..
argh.. Im suffering from 'missing bear' syndrome..
1:14 am by *- icepiano
Sunday, June 11, 2006
finally I got information abt my studies from acca..
in a dilenma.. wondering whether to study there..
coz it's lecture base.. I dunno if I can cope with it..
was in the campus, like got alot of 'chinese' ppl..
cant imagine myself going to a new environment..
maybe Im juz not used to it..
bear not ard to advice me..
dad stressing me..
me myself still pondering..
wat m I suppose to do?
I thought I wanted to study accounting..
I didnt imagine I will be afraid of failing..
failing in studying the whole course, failing to be a certified accountant?
kind of missing my directions now..
I admit.. I cant settle down..
I admit.. I haven thought of my future..
I admit.. I still dunno wat I wan in my life..
who can guide me?
who can lighten me?
Im juz too dependent.. =(
11:17 pm by *- icepiano
Friday, June 09, 2006
*8 June*
dear's enlistment day..
send him all the way to tekong with yy, dear's aunt n bro..
feeling abit awkward in the beginning.. luckily I had yy with me..
the whole day at tekong was pretty boring actually..
acc dear to tekong n was separated after we reached..
he was to report n rehearsal some oath taking thingy meanwhile we tour ard the campus.. look pretty much like normal poly..
was held on for an hr to wait for the enlistees to rehearsal for their oath taking ceremony..
haa.. my "identification" was exposed..
thanx to the ring Im wearing..
the bro recognised it n asked yy whether Im bernard's gf at the midst when I was in the ladies.. the aunt overheard it too..
according to yy, he said they asked 'happily'..
which means they r not really against to our relationship?
ehh I dunno..
we were taken to the auditorium when the enlistees were ready..
watched the army video, briefing by the commanding officer..
the army officer was pretty friendly..
but can see that they were veri strict towards the boys..
whenever he asked a qn.. the boys will have to shout "YES SIR!!!" loud n clear..
was stunned actually..
afterwhich the oath taking ceremony begins.. is like taking pledge la..
funny.. they have to read out their own names n ic number.. sounding all in a mess..
after everything ends, they have to four in outside while waiting for us to go to the canteen together.. looks so in order..
had the canteen food with dear they all.. food wasn't really great.. was given a big serving.. I didnt finished it..
bear didnt wave me a big gdbye which I was looking forward to.. sadded..
I cant stop thinking only 2 weeks later then I will get to see him..
by then he will be botak.. haha..
and now.. Im already missing him badly..
argh...
sad sad sad..
6:14 pm by *- icepiano
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
2 more days..
my bear bear will have to go NS..
cant get to see him for 2 weeks..
life is going to be tough..
2 more days..
dun even have much time spend with him le..
but he always has so many activities n had no time for me..
dunno should I understand him or feel sad for myself..
I guessed I shouldnt have put him in the 1st place in my life..
maybe I should spend time on other things too..
seems like it will be hard for me to adapt with life from then on..
Or I should say from now on..
haiz.. feel so helpless sometimes..
got no mood for anything else..
10:27 pm by *- icepiano
