Monday, July 31, 2006


all I need is juz a little more time..
Im not asking anything more..
time is precious.. esp our weekends..
the only time I can see u..
the only time I can feel ur existence..
the only time I can feel the warmth from ur body..
time spend together is getting lesser n lesser..
somtimes we cant even enjoy ourselves..
our distance is drifting away..
our conversation has always been touring ard the same topics or we had nothing to talk abt..
no more honeymoon.. no more lovey dovey..
Im not complaining or watever..
but wat I need isnt asking me how's my day, wat I done for the day..
I need more love, more care, more concern..
u asked me what m I not happy abt..
I cant ans u coz I dun even knoe the ans myself..
all I feel is our distance is drifting away..
I dun wan that to happen..
I dun wanna lose u..
I knoe u r trying hard to make me happy whenever u meet me..
Im also trying to be understanding to understand ur situation..
it's really hard..
1 week meet once..
and that one time is so short a period of time..
all Im asking for is juz 1 day out with u with nothing distracting us or watever..
2 weeks of absence is long enough..
why cant I enjoy one day out with u?
I knoe being quiet doesnt mean Im being understanding to u..
but I nv had a gd chance to talk abt it with u..
when I need someone to talk to.. u r not ard..
when I want to talk to u.. I cant find a gd place, gd time to say it..
when u want me to tell u how I felt.. Im seriously loss of words..
sometimes u dun need to spell everything out.. use ur heart to feel it..
I also want to spend a happy day with u..
am I able to..?

1:46 am by *- icepiano

Sunday, July 30, 2006


went for SP IBM concert..
bear wasnt performing..
he was there to help out with the lightings..
didnt wanna go at the first place..
but since he's going there to help out, so I went..
concert was happening..
alot of people shouting..
atmosphere was better than previous IBM..
repertoire quite ok..
not so bad la..
haiz..
juz feel Im wasting time there..
firstly it's boring..
secondly Im not there for any purpose..
thirdly waste the time I can spend with my dear..
nvm.. since he wanna go help out.. what can I say..

went for midnight movie at the cathay after the concert..
bear say he wanna watch "tokyo drift"
it's a car show..
the fast n the furious series..
nice show I will say..
I like seeing the cars doing stunts..
the part where they drift.. 1 word-cool!
too bad that we sit at the 2nd row..
I have to raise my head to see the screen..
and there were lots of scenes that having spinning parts..
or should it be poor shooting..
I juz felt dizzy watching the show then..
so wasnt really enjoying..
time pass fast..
there goes 1 day..
no extra time for me n dear..
I hate this..
y cant time pass slower..
y cant juz stop ticking time away..

11:10 pm by *- icepiano

Tuesday, July 25, 2006


today's cost accounting topic was material cost analysis n labour cost analysis..
when lecturer was going through labour cost analysis, my worries for work arise again..
haiz..
n we were saying abt time-rated labour..
Im also working as a time-rated labour.. at a rate of 4.60 per hr..
how pathetic huh..?
n lecturer was using macdonald as an eg..
he quoted $6 per hr for working at mac..
LOL..
dream on having such gd rate..
someone told him was $4 per hr..
well well.. it was suppose to be $3 instead all right..
we did a calculation..
working as an accountant, u can at least fetch a salary of $2000 above..
after a couple yrs, u can even get more than $3000 or $4000?
but if u work in mac.. at a rate of $4 per hr, hence u work 24rs everyday nonstop for a month..
ok.. let me show u the calculation for clearer view..

($)4 x 24(hrs) x 30(days) = $2880

u work 24 hrs non stop for a $2880???
whole class was laughing non stop as if is a veri hilarious joke..
I kept quiet.. coz I dun think is funny..
juz find it amused..
it's the same as working in CS..
$4.60 per hr..
and I cant even work most of the days..
how much can I earn then..?
argh.. so hard to find a part time job..

saw my sec sch mate juz now while I was on my way home..
suddenly I miss my sec sch life..
esp sec 2-3 life..
everything then was so great..
had my frenz ard me.. life wasnt bored..
it was pretty fufilling instead..
well well..
at a split second, we're already 20..
gosh.. getting old..
really hope to see my frenz once again.. =)

11:36 pm by *- icepiano

Sunday, July 23, 2006


argh.. I spend money again..
was out with angie to collect our shoes at far east..
after that went shopping ard..
n didnt expect myself to spend any money today..
coz intially we almost didnt meet up due to some reasons..
but in the end I still bought..
1. butterfly necklace from chomel
2. red polo top from topshop

haiz.. should restrict myself..
but still couldnt help it..
I cant resist the temptation..

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* new blog skin *

finally I finished designing my new blog skin..
actually wanna do on the theme on freedom..
but in the end I named it as * I Miss You *
partly becoz I miss him.. another is becoz I wanna put some words to fill up the empty space which I couldnt find anything to put..
the effect was nice after all..
done many changes to it..
spend me 2 days.. haha..
I like it..
but maybe it's not really ideal for a blogskin..
anyway.. have to thank sharon for her brushes..
if not I wouldnt produce such nice skin.. *grins*
feel free to post any comments if u all want..
*smilez*

3:10 am by *- icepiano

Friday, July 21, 2006


pain!!!
argh.. finally got my wisdom tooth out..
the wound is hurting me badly.. I think is swollen somehow..
couldnt eat anything becoz I cant bite..
brings me no appetite..
was bleeding profusely for a couple of hrs after the operation..
the feeling is juz so sucky..
and no one is concern abt the toothache Im bearing..
suddenly I felt so lonely..
I need so much love n concern at the moment..
but no one cares..

where is my bear bear?? *sad*

2:20 am by *- icepiano

Thursday, July 20, 2006


I have finally quitted grade 6 theory..
firstly I feel that the entire thing is boring..
secondly I couldnt commit myself to study it..
thirdly Im lazy..

haha alrite.. actually it's juz plainly sian.. png kept repeating the same things again n again..
it's not as if we dunno.. is becoz we have been missing lots of lessons that we couldnt remember wat he had taught previously.. the contents juz couldnt get into my head..
hmm and I guess I have no interest in getting the grade 6 cert..
a grade 5 is gd enough for me..
Im not going for any grade 8 trumpet or music diploma..
I admit is a moment of implusive to agree on taking grade 6 with shi n yy..
but seriously I dun think Im up to it and dun think I will go so far then..
yes.. music is my passion..
not juz playing wise.. I love singing more then..
well.. this passion will nv stop..
probably everything I said was juz an excuse..
yeah probably Im wasting my money away studying all kinds of things but yet I cant accomplish anything..
anyway.. no one can understand me..

2:23 am by *- icepiano

Wednesday, July 19, 2006


*the one that makes my day*




ain't she cute? hehe..

omg.. she is juz soooo cute..
no one can resist her.. haha..

playing with my winnie pooh..

yeah.. she's the one who will brighten my day..
my baby cousin.. cutie pie..

2:26 am by *- icepiano

Monday, July 17, 2006


sian.. there goes my weekend again..
it's monday again.. haiz..

my weekends was short.. dunno y time pass so fast again..
it should slow down during weekends for me ma.. =x
so little time to spend with him..
wanna enjoy also cannot.. haiz..
is not I dun wanna enjoy time spend with him..
but sometimes things happen unexpectedly..
now I cant get to see him for 2 weeks due to his field camp..
why cant they let him off more time before the field camp..
1 day more also gd enough..
so that he can have sufficient time to rest n more time to spend with me..
so stingy.. sat morning out, sunday nite in.. 1 day only..
argh..
I muz stop thinking that I cant get to see him for 2 weeks, if not my life is gotta be miserable for the rest of the days till I can meet him again..

what can I do to make my life happier without him?
shopping? --- no $$
go out with fren? --- muz spend $$/fren not free
stay at home? --- sian
play maple? --- meaningless
work? --- no mood/no time
study? --- come on.. it took 3 days of my week le..
revision? --- count me out

guess I have to start to find some entertainment that is 'free' to keep myself occupied le..
I have to change my concept towards my living..
if not I dunno how m I going to survive..
argh..

2:56 am by *- icepiano

Thursday, July 13, 2006


days pass faster than usual when sch starts..
mon-wed schooling..
thur, fri either working or shopping with frenz..
sat n sun will be reserved for my bear bear..
that's my life now..
seems boring..
I should have studied harder n fight hard towards NUS or NTU..
at least I get to keep myself occupied all the time..
n I would have made frenz with ppl there?
it's too late now..
life at the new sch was lonely n boring..
even the course was my interest, it had become so meaningless to me now..
I dun enjoy.. getting to dislike it somehow ba..
but anyway I will still try my best to study hard for it..

wanna find a part time job at this point of time..
but dunno I can work as wat..
coz I need a flexible timing job.. plus can dun need work weekends de..
where can u find? other than working at cs..
seriously I dun feel like working at that place anymore..
I wanna quit..
but I cant.. coz it's my rice bowl..
once I quit, I wont have a montly income..
at least if I work, I still can earn that $100 to pay that damn insurance fee..
haiz..
or I find jx n work under him as a starhub promoter?
haiz..
I cant find daily part time job coz I cant work on mon-wed..
too bad that I chose a 2-6 timing for sch..
I should have chosen 6-10 timing..
at least I could use the rest of the time to work part time at a proper place..
at least I got income.. I can feed myself..
dun need to get money from parents..
not I wanna get extra money from them.. but I need the money..
blame it on my spendthrift.. I know..

haiz..
no schooling, I feel frustrated..
no bear, I feel sad..
no frenz, I feel lonely..
no freedom, I feel restricted..
no life, I feel devastated..
I felt so useless..

tell me.. what should I do?

11:34 pm by *- icepiano

Monday, July 10, 2006


*9 July 2006*
Beautiful Sunday - SWS Goes Animal

finally the concert has ended..
it was a successful one.. full house..
it was entertaining too..
esp during the piece 'baby elephant walk'
yusri invited a little boy up the stage to conduct us..
LOL..
surprisingly the little boy was on beat..
veri cute..
and I guess everyone felt much relaxed after that..
everyone, the players, the audience enjoyed the whole program..
I think I enjoyed this time's beautiful sunday than the previous one..
sadly that dear couldnt join me.. =(

took quite lots of pic..
let's take a look at them..

*esplanade outdoors*

*twist* smilez.. a row of 'gays'.. wahaha

in our dressing room

at the lounge waiting for concert starts..


*after concert*

long time no see..


*sweetie*

11:14 pm by *- icepiano

Monday, July 03, 2006


new sch new environment..
seriously.. I didnt like it..
the place is small..
no more big campus, many handsome guys or pretty girls for me to see..
I think Im starting to regret it..
argh.. Im already sian abt the whole thing..

almost or I should say all the students there r foreigners..
Im like the odd one out..
the only classmate I got to know today was a china girl..
she look like a singaporean to me at first..
she dun speak like a china girl either..
anyway.. lesson was damn boring..
that's the whole part Im starting to get sian..
lecture notes in big pile.. thick n heavy.. (not including the textbooks yet)
not only that, it's kinda difficult to study..
lotsa things to memorise.. argh.. I hate memorising..
no more calculations, all theories base.. *sad*

I regretting for getting into this sch..
should have taken SIM in the 1st place..
maybe life will be better there?
haiz..
cant imagine.. I cant think much..
my future seems blur again..
I need motivation..
not verbal encouragement or anything..
sorry dear.. I know u meant well..
but I know the start wasn't pretty impressive already..
so I really couldn't make myself promise u I will do well..

I wondered..
can I do it?
can I manage it?
can I score it?
can I get it?

haiz..
I couldnt see my way out..

11:48 pm by *- icepiano